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[Ylvis Sanyo]

I'm so mentally ill that I don't want to be alive. I'm feeling an overload of pain from depression.

[Mahou]

Does FFR need a Suicidal Thoughts subforum? This is getting ridiculous. Nothing is worth killing yourself.

[Mahou]

Rapta, you got discord man? Message me on there if you can.

[Azpb Djbread]

We love you bro, dont do it.

Please, if you are even considering it, at least talk to someone first.

1-800-273-8255

[no homo, btw]

[Ylvis Sanyo]

Scintill is an example. He proves that some care and some don't. Everyone believes themselves to be right. Who is right? Do I kill myself because people like minded of scintill don't want to hear about me anymore, or do I continue to live in hopes the suffering goes away like djbread.. that's all assuming I'm not allowed to choose for myself

[Ylvis Sanyo]

I obviously cant fix my own life and at this point i dont feel like anyone else can

[Ylvis Sanyo]

I posted this to help myself therefore trying to fix my shot by having other people help me figure out what to FUCKING think

[evanescence_death4ever]

Scintill is being a fuck. In this situation, don't note his opinion with any sort of worth.



Depressive holes can be deep and painful and yeah you might just want to jump--but no one else you know actually wants that. People want you around. [fuck scintill if he doesn't, man] Message me on Discord~~I'll try to see if I can help you hash out some thoughts.

eva#8427

[MixMasterLar]

If you're listening to people who say that destruction is the answer, you're listening to the wrong people.

Nothing positive ever came from suicide, but I know plenty of people who stuck in this batshit world and turned it all around.if you're still alive you can still make it better. I 100% believe and live by that

[Shikari]

yo, Scintill, calm down, you may hurt somebody with that edge.

Ylvis, calm down too, some people here showed that they do care, so pick one of them, have a talk and let it go. Like Mahou said, nothing is worth killing yourself for. Trust me, been there.

Now stop this. There are kids in this website after all. Have some decency.

[Ylvis Sanyo]

My parents said i call any hotlines or cause any drama (ex. Telling my therapist I feel suicidal, causing him to make me go to the hospital) I wont be allowed to live at Home anymore

What else can i do

[andy-o24]

You're gonna get the same advice as you got from the other thread. Go back there and read it.

At this point, you should seek professional help. We care about you, Rapta, but there is only so much help you can get from text posted by people on a rhythm game site.

Edit: child protective services might be an option to consider. Tell your therapist

-o24

[Ylvis Sanyo]

I'm not a child anymore, I turned 18 two months ago

[MixMasterLar]

Originally Posted by Ylvis Sanyo

My parents said i call any hotlines or cause any drama (ex. Telling my therapist I feel suicidal, causing him to make me go to the hospital) I wont be allowed to live at Home anymore

What else can i do

Ok, right off the hip I'd say they are in the wrong and you need to seek help. That said, they may simply think you're not serious (old people be like that at times) and dont want to encourage you to take the "joke" too far.

I doubt they'll kick you out if you seek help, when it comes down to it.

Hate to ask but, what's your age?

[MixMasterLar]

18? Yo road trip it outta there
Need money? Snatch a job for a while and save
Save and book it, go see stuff. Gotta be better then the emptiness of death. Swing by Pensacola and i'll have a soda and an open chair waitin' on ya

[Charu]

Why do you feel you're mentally ill and why are you facing depression? Telling yourself why you feel depressed I think is a good move to make if you're unsure about it yourself.

Also, I might as well repeat myself when it comes to this sort of thing. Killing yourself is not the solution and should never be consider. That's not fixing, that's potentially creating more problems for your immediate family and your close friends.

And no one can really fix anyone's life but themselves in all honesty.

So yeah, take that what you will because I know you did this before and acted on it.

One question though, am I understanding your post about your parents not having you live at home if you choose to try to seek help? Is that what I'm reading here?

[MixMasterLar]

That said, I'd still see a pro on my way outta town

[evanescence_death4ever]

Living at home isn't the end-all-be-all, even though it may seem so.

Sounds like you're Rapta, from the looks of what others are saying.

I'd take Andy's advice--read the other thread.

Calling a hotline doesn't have to cause drama--they can help you work through your thoughts. If you don't have a cell phone, maybe try just saying you want to call a friend.

Sadly it's true, though. We care about you, but there's only so much we can do through text.

If someone offers to talk to you, hit them up, maybe it'll help~

[Spenner]

I'm not sure what's going through your head Scintil, moreso than Ylvis. What the fuck gives you such apathy? You must not be all there and square or think this is way simpler than it is.

Add me on skype and I will talk to you. You're stuck in tunnel vision. It reaches a peak where nothing else is on your mind but one fixation. Yeah, you're in a mental illness induced loop. Please talk to me or anyone else here that has offered to be reached out to, you truly just need a different angle on things.

c4dspenner

Anyone else who needs to talk or wants guidance, fuck it, since I keep pushing for a mental health resources subforum but nothing becomes of it, I might as well make it me. So talk to me.

[MixMasterLar]

My discord is @MixMasterLar
Best way to get ahold of me