Posted on: January 19, 2015, at 02:56:34pm [9 comments]
Just today, I received a pretty bad message from my father's girlfriend (my parents are separated, hence the terminology).
As a person who grew up there and knew the shortcomings of living on the southern part of the city, I would always joke about how I never wanted to go to the south part of the city because I'd get shot. Never take the red line south, unless you had a death-wish; go to the south side packing heat, etc.
Those jokes ended today. My dad was robbed and beaten last night, and left on the pavement to fucking rot at roughly 2 AM CST last night. He thankfully managed to get a call out to my uncle. This morning, I noticed a rather strange notification from someone who normally doesn't try to get in touch with me -- my grandmother, which was my actually father's girlfriend on her account. I was sent an image of my dad laying on a bed, eyes shut and pale.
It scared the living shit out of me. The last image that I saw with a person laying on a bed, eyes shut and pale-faced was my grandfather from my mom's side, and in that image, he was deceased. I'm pretty sure my heart was probably moving at about 160+ beats a minute after seeing the picture of my dad and I almost busted into immediate tears.
Today has been a horrible whirlwind of emotions for me and I'm still a massive wreck now because of so many things, and I simply don't know how to react right now. I normally don't post things like this on FFR, as I never want to feel like I'm being an overly-emotional person about my personal life. I just really needed to let this out and I'm trying to reach out to as many of my close friends/people I know to help me keep myself sane. I know what it's like to be reclusive in a situation where you're thinking irrationally, and I don't want to be in that place again.