What are you improving right now

[QueenAshy]

Re: What are you improving right now

What have you been improving in yourself, or have seen significant improvement with?

Body image.

My self loathing is currently becoming better, though I still dislike some things about myself; like how I'm flat chested (damn these boobs are taking a while to be visible and tangible to others), and the fact that I'm so damn thin.

I'm improving on my body image, but I'm still not where i'd like to be yet.

Also depression as well, but that's kinda old news, as I've been feeling better for weeks (at least anyone who follows my reddit would know).

[Arch0wl]

Re: What are you improving right now

- legitimately believe I have value in some form.

- overcame pathological focus on sex and finally recognized it for what it was. no longer care about sex as an end to itself.

- reduced time wasted by masturbating; now treat masturbating like speedrunning.

- no longer care about body image as much. still care about fitness from a health POV.

- work on my self-concept; I identified for a long time as "an asshole" because I didn't have the vocabulary to express something like "I care more about minimizing falsehood than about being polite." I don't think I am actually an asshole, in fact I disagree with the whole moral framing of the word.

since I am adhd and also have non-24 hour sleep patterns (i.e. my body has tremendous amounts of energy and has always preferred to go to bed much later even as early as age 7), the following relate to that:

- realizing that if I can see calorie totals as a number that I just follow procedurally, I can see the time I go to bed this way as well, and use sleep aids to do this.

- valuing completion, or finishing a thing, as a virtue in and of itself.

- valuing normal adult responsibilities that I have been able to get out of in the past.

- appreciating the value of routine, even if it's silly.

- going out of my way to help other people and maintain relationships, mail out presents, be thoughtful, etc.

- appreciate simple pleasures in life, like diet pepsi and air conditioning.

not exhaustive, but good enough.

[Arch0wl]

Re: What are you improving right now

oh, and most relevantly: going back to my roots for the things that make me happy by playing more rhythm games and attempting to be competitive in pop'n music.

[aperson]

Re: What are you improving right now

oh, and most relevantly: going back to my roots for the things that make me happy by playing more rhythm games and attempting to be competitive in pop'n music.

hell yeah 2018 year of the bemani renaissance

[DaBackpack]

Re: What are you improving right now

nothing

[MarcusHawkins]

Re: What are you improving right now

Oh yea, and notice how my tagline says "Constantly Improving!"

Although that originally pertained to what was once my constant improvement playing FFR, I have been thinking that this goes beyond.

I feel like that whatever happens in life, whether my FFR, music, studies, life choices, or just being a decent human being, I'm always improving in at least one thing. Even if I feel like I'm retrograding in something, I'm always improving in another. And I'm making sure to stay true to that.

nothing

Not so sure about that

[aperson]

Re: What are you improving right now

i'm gettin better at technical itg pretty quick thsi shit is really fun. it's pretty crazy how far the community has come since I last played.

[samurai7694]

Re: What are you improving right now

I want to be more focused and disciplined with music education, practicing the violin more, and sticking to daily routines more strictly (balanced diet, streaming, exercise). Gaming is fun but I realize that it fuels my desire to be accepted by my peers as well as to compensate for past failures and it's not healthy.

I'm also working on completely letting go of my past and being content with where I am now even if I am slow with irl progress

[mewtikz]

Re: What are you improving right now

Alright, here comes a big dump.

Want to improve:

- My drive to do anything "useful". I used to love programming but now I only do it if it's a task assigned to me.

- Doing the things that I should be doing for a better future but failing to do every time out of laziness. Often I get asked "why don't you do x?", I usually say "I know I should!" That's because I do know that it's a good idea, but whenever it comes down to it, I never feel like doing anything when I get home. For example, like that time when I could have had an internship. It was the proper course of action because it would have made me a very employable candidate for whatever job I end up with, but I didn't feel like writing a resume and so I convinced myself that I was under-qualified (I wasn't) and I wouldn't have gotten in (I would've). That's in the past, I'll do it better next time I have the opportunity

Currently improving:

- My weight, I'm considered "underweight" on most charts I see on google.

- My sleep schedule. It's a work in progress but I'd like to try waking up on an actual schedule. Getting off my phone at least an hour before bed is supposed to help but I'm having trouble sticking to it. No, I don't need to see garbage on reddit before I sleep. Sleep is very important, but instant gratification wins, apparently.

Improved:

- My FFR skill, and I'm still getting better!

- My social life. Being friends with people and hanging out with them weekly is better than having friends on nodding terms. This aspect of me saw improvement as early as: the minute I stepped my foot on a college campus, but it's been continually growing and has had, by far, the biggest improvement in 2018!

- My face. I have had mild acne for a while and with a change of habits and a better diet, it's finally starting to clear up. I think the most noticeable impact was after a not eating over 150g of sugar like 4-5 days per week. It's not sustainable. >‿<

- My anxiety; during this summer I began to do some introspection (out of boredom), and the way I was analyzing my situation ended up causing a few panic attacks. I'm not exactly sure what's changed but I have a different perspective on things now, I guess I told myself that the anxiety is very temporary, as all emotions are, and I can approach each problem separately instead of focusing on them all at once. It seemed to come up out of the blue as I had never experienced anything quite like it before, and it disappeared just as fast (still, that month was hell). Maybe it'll pop back up again at some later time.

[xXOpkillerXx]

Re: What are you improving right now

- legitimately believe I have value in some form.

- overcame pathological focus on sex and finally recognized it for what it was. no longer care about sex as an end to itself.

- reduced time wasted by masturbating; now treat masturbating like speedrunning.

- no longer care about body image as much. still care about fitness from a health POV.

- work on my self-concept; I identified for a long time as "an asshole" because I didn't have the vocabulary to express something like "I care more about minimizing falsehood than about being polite." I don't think I am actually an asshole, in fact I disagree with the whole moral framing of the word.

since I am adhd and also have non-24 hour sleep patterns (i.e. my body has tremendous amounts of energy and has always preferred to go to bed much later even as early as age 7), the following relate to that:

- realizing that if I can see calorie totals as a number that I just follow procedurally, I can see the time I go to bed this way as well, and use sleep aids to do this.

- valuing completion, or finishing a thing, as a virtue in and of itself.

- valuing normal adult responsibilities that I have been able to get out of in the past.

- appreciating the value of routine, even if it's silly.

- going out of my way to help other people and maintain relationships, mail out presents, be thoughtful, etc.

- appreciate simple pleasures in life, like diet pepsi and air conditioning.

not exhaustive, but good enough.

Enjoyed reading this. Good job and good luck.

[Arch0wl]

Re: What are you improving right now

thanks Op

[DJAirWave]

Re: What are you improving right now

-I've improved on my mental state. I used to suffer from PTSD, BPD, and depression that was pretty debilitating for a while. At one point it's manifested as night terrors and severe panic attacks which would make me pass out more often than not. After counseling and CBT, I've been able to overcome a lot of past demons and current self compared to my past self are night and day at this point.

-I've overcome my addiction to benzos, which is tied to the above point.

-I'm not longer homeless either. A couple of years ago I tried starting life over in another state after burning my bridges with my family, again tied to the above points. Needless to say the attempt failed, and I was homeless for some time. Now I live in an apartment in LA while I go back to school.

-I'm currently working on my self discipline and priorities to better optimize my time to work towards my current goals. I write my daily schedules ahead of time, and I make sure to complete each task everyday. Productivity is definitely more rewarding to me more than anything else at this point.

-I've been reading a lot more than I used to, mainly philosophy such as the book Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. I also watch a channel on YouTube called Impact Theory, and write down notes with each interview to apply to myself as I work on rebuilding myself and moving towards long term goals.

[lumphoboextreme]

Re: What are you improving right now

Mostly just adulting, got a house, got a new car in cash(way overdue), have a promotion in another month or so at work. Haven’t dropped in here in a very long time so hi to anyone who remembers me from like a decade ago.

[MinaciousGrace]

Re: What are you improving right now

aretha franklin is dead

[Moria]

Re: What are you improving right now

aretha franklin is dead

haha same