What do you think is wrong with you?

[dAnceguy117]

Re: What do you think is wrong with you?

- I chew ice

- I chronically procrastinate. I do that thing people here have already talked about where I let whatever type of work pile up and then get a mental block due to how much work I've allowed to pile up. the catch: I've always gotten the work done. after getting the result I wanted, I then feel no urgent need to change my habits, and the cycle continues. I end up putting an unnecessary amount of pressure on myself.

- I know how to cook basically two different meals and am hesitant to try to learn anything else, as if the pots and pans would suddenly explode.

- I have more than a little bit of body hair. I don't think I would mind if I hadn't drawn unwanted attention when I was younger. at the same time, I think shaving everything would be an uncomfortably drastic shift for me.

- I lose my train of thought when I talk for a while, and I have a minor stutter.

- I'm pretty sure I will always be addicted to at least one thing on the internet. if it weren't this site, it would be a different one.

- I have no fashion sense. I used to take pride in putting absolutely no effort into looking presentable, and I don't remember why. now I'm just beginning to change my ways, and I'm pretty embarrassed about it.

- I want to be physically fit, but my drive to actually exercise has come and gone twice each year ever since I stopped playing organized sports.

- I've gotten worse over time about staying in touch with friends.

- I try extremely hard to hide my most personal issues from literally everyone.

- [withheld] x10

[Spenner]

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I wasn't saying that the issues I quoted from you is synonymous with schizoid personality disorder, I know that those problems that you listed is nothing like schizoid personality disorder; I was listing my issues and the ones I've quoted from your (and Dynamo's) posts are the issues that I've had. Sorry for the misunderstanding.

Ah okay that's fine, misunderstood~

Who knows. Perhaps you prefer to stay awake to find further means of entertaining yourself until you've had your fill? That applies to me a lot of the time. You are advised for example to not use electronic devices or watch tv for 2 hours I think? before getting ready for sleep, but for people like you and I who use our computers or tablets quite often, that is not really an option because of our desire to keep ourselves entertained through that outlet. My body like yours I'm assuming, is probably trained to continue doing what I want until I decide that it is time to finally rest, and that doesn't happen til around 4 am or so.

When taking melatonin I feel a definitive queue that it is nighttime, and nearing bedtime, and I gradually feel my body grow tired. Though it never reaches a certain peak where I would usually need to be at to fall asleep. With the mind continuing to be stimulated from computers, tablets, whatever; I cannot break that intense rush of thought even after being away from stimulus for awhile. My mind will go on amazing intellectual tangents and daydreams, but never DREAMdreams. Last night I reviewed a bunch of details for an idea of a cryptocurrency that mimics the properties of other online currencies or credits. Prolly wouldn't work... but still, when I am deprived of sensory input, my mind becomes a laboratory of ideas, and it speeds UP.

Only when I force myself to push away every thought as soon as it appears- which is a lengthy process- and also confront anxieties such as how losing consciousness is reminiscent of a peaceful death which gets me existentially worrying- do I fall into a state that can lull me towards sleep. Even with an empty mind, I cannot stop the parts of my brain analysing the lack of thought, and how much of a sponge I currently am for the slightest hint of stimuli. I try to align my mind with things that associate with letting go, relaxing, and being unaware of ME altogether. If, while in bed, I hold any sort of self awareness, I cannot sleep, period. I cannot associate myself losing consciousness, or else it will be a painful ride of being stuck in pre-sleep, with hallucinations, and sleep paralysis. That's why some nights I really do experience a death of the ego in order to just fall the fuck asleep.

Just this morning I had a little experiment. When I woke up too early, I felt an immediate return of self awareness, which I tried pushing away. Back to sleep I went. It was a weak sleep, I had one dream and then woke up, still too early to really wake up. This time I allowed myself to be fully self aware, and then tried to sleep again, and it wouldn't work. Once I was able to push self awareness away again, I slept once more.

It's interesting to me how little effort it takes to have the mind too stimulated for sleep. Simply feeling aware of yourself is enough to keep me from falling asleep all night long. Jeez. So there's another thing wrong with me~

[devonin]

Re: What do you think is wrong with you?

I occasionally decide that something that seems good in my life isn't something I should have, so I just ruin it.

[Cavernio]

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the things I want turn out to be full of lies or a complete sham

[Cavernio]

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oh, I also have no motivation so I'm lazy and selfish and generally don't want anything. I'm also tired a lot, probably goes hand in hand with no motivation.
all around I'm a fuck up and I don't try to fix it
I'm emotionally unavailable too often

[thesunfan]

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1) I'm bitterly sarcastic, which usually is in and of itself is fine, but usually have a straight face and this can confuse/upset a lot of people.
2) Still haven't come out to my parents or any of my irl friends (though some I'm pretty sure have put 2 and 2 together)
3) I'm allergic to the best pets in the world; cats.
4) I don't have the motivation to be really fit, but care enough to avoid certain foods and too much inactivity.
5) I have an irrational fear of certain tiling in bathtubs (don't ask).

[xNiX]

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1) My self confidence is pretty shot.
2) Sometimes I care way too much for other people rather than myself.
3) I drink to cope with problems (rarely, but I have done it)
4) I have a hard time telling someone "I love you"...even my own parents.
5) Sometimes when I talk to people, I come off as an ass hole even though I try to say it the most sincere way.

[Xiz]

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Have you ever had just one of those days where you feel like

[Arntonach]

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- The snarkiness I developed to deal with people who mess with me tends to affect people who are trying to be nice to me

- I let insults hurt me far too hard

- I tend to loose interest in things I start

- I have a hard time working up the courage to talk to other people

I'm sure there are other problems I have, but I'd have to think it over first.

[korny]

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Why would anyone ever chew ice? WTF?

It's said to be a sign that you might be iron deficient. I forget the science behind why this is, but I remember hearing about it. I've also heard sexually frustrated individuals are known to chew ice as well although I don't know how much validity there is to that. I chew ice when it is in my cup and am sexually frustrated in my own right, don't know about the iron deficiency.

[Fission]

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Why would anyone ever chew ice? WTF?

my dad used to order drinks from fast food restaurants with extra ice just to do this. he's weird

[JohnRedWolf87]

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I hate formal clothes. I can deal with business casual, but I still prefer to wear what I want. I don't think it's something that's wrong with me per se, but it sucks when i have to wear these things. I want to share my nerd interests with the world!

[popsicle_3000]

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the hell is this thread

[Vendetta21]

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http://www.cracked.com/blog/5-stupid...n-broken-home/

[.Layne.]

Re: What do you think is wrong with you?

I'm too competitive
I go too easy on people
I love calling people out and reminding them of their mistakes over and over