I'll elaborate on this a little, last night as a bit of an example.
For years now i've had what was diagnosed as depression, Meds didn't work out for me, I was cutting (not for attention, i hid them) and i generally was in a bad place inside my head. Things got better for me (yay weed) for a decent period of time, couple of years..hadn't cut and had really good restraint on myself. So fucking proud of myself, fuck the old me.
Last night i went off the deep end, my head was exploding with horrible thoughts. My own voice inside my head telling me to kill myself, over and over again..Nothing was calming me down..Clearly i didn't kill myself lol, but i made a horrible mess of my arm of which i'm so fucking disappointed in myself for. I swore to myself a couple of years back that i'd never do that bullshit again, but i needed that release and was really scared of what would happen if i didn't do it. I was really angry, but so sad at the same time..so that's that. I've seen a GP, been recommended a Clinical Psychologist and a Psychiatrist. I need to be diagnosed properly and get some proper help. I'm clearly not just depressed. I'm always irritated, fidgety (always need to be moving my foot or doing something with my fingers) and a whole bunch of other crap..
Anyway, sorry for the long post. That pretty much sums me up. In a bad place, getting help.
I have some severe mood changes to be honest, some so severe I was really close to stabbing myself in the stomach with a knife 3 weeks ago, not good :\
I have some severe mood changes to be honest, some so severe I was really close to stabbing myself in the stomach with a knife 3 weeks ago, not good :\
ADHD since forever, anxiety and nearly-suicidal depression since around 4 years ago.
Maybe getting better recently but sometimes I... relapse. Not fun.
Easy to be open about it on the internet, more difficult in practice.
Just to clarify, I stopped taking my pharmecuticals in March, when I replaced them with a proper sleep pattern, regular exercise, focusing my attention on socialibility, and maintaining a steady job.
Ironically, maintaining a steady income solved most of my problems. I just drink a lot because its fun
Also clinical depression is different from acute depression or general sadness. Just saying from experience
Mental illnesses are inferred from behavior, called into existence artificially. They only are names to refer to certain behaviour types that psychologists see in people. They don't actually exist.
Anyways, when I was ~5 I was diagnosed with HFA (High Functioning Autism), I also never share this because usually I'm afraid I might be judged for it because people have been picked on because of Autism and people might treat me differently/not the way I would like to be treated and when I was 14, I was diagnosed with Epilepsy. My seizures are getting better though, which is good.
Mental illnesses are inferred from behavior, called into existence artificially. They only are names to refer to certain behaviour types that psychologists see in people.
True! For most!
They don't actually exist.
What!!! Are you saying no neurophysiology is involved whatsoever? Is a behavioral trait not attributed to a physical cause in the brain? That's why certain drugs are hand picked due to certain areas that need cleaning up, or to stop certain activity in a hyperactive place, etc.
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