Are you insecure about your intelligence?

[Cavernio]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

So....I totally voted wrongly because I misread the thingy. Ironically, I said I thought I was smart.

I voted the last choice, when I should have voted the second last choice.

I think I am intelligent, but I feel like I lack knowledge, and I will only go out of my way for knowledge if I want specifics about something, so I only sometimes try to make myself smarter. I am usually completely unaware about current politics and news (don't read the paper, watch the news, read the news on the internet), and even though I've bought books about subjects that interest me greatly years ago, they're still mostly unread. (Although I will point out that reading some of those books is a total chore because they will often lay foundations of ideas that then, in my head, must agree with, despite it not being the focus of the book, in order for me to want to keep reading.)

I mean, there's so much knowledge and so many ideas out there that it would be impossible for me to learn it all, and why would I need to learn it all if I can just look it up?

Engler: Are you my BF? Because I've never seen you here, and I know my bf doesn't come here, but he knows I post here all the time, and I could practically quote your line as his, and I do think that he may (might) at some point come looking here for shits and giggles simply because he knows this is my little 'online community'. I mean, I'm assuming you're not, so at least take some pleasure in that you're not the only one, and that my bf is clearly not 'alone' right now. Also, I'm not sure he got over what you experienced as a child until older than 18, but maybe I'm wrong about that.

What Reincarnate said about the bubble of college/university too. Except I don't think I have as much against stupid people as he does. Some people just don't get 'it', and you can't blame them for it, especially if they try, and often people will appear more stupid than they are. I feel like I'm the latter, (IRL though, not of these forums...I once tried to enter a discussion with one of my profs regarding 'encephalatitis', when it is 'encephalitis'...adding syllables to words can only make you sound dumb) and it pisses me off to no end when someone thinks I am dumb because they perceive some action I do as being dumb, when usually, I've over-analyzed it or something, ergo making the 'dumb' choice seem much more intelligent to me. I like to think I do a good job of not judging people for small things that I may not fully understand.

[DarknessXoXLight]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

I'm not insecure about it, I just tend not to ... "flaunt" it or show it. I really am intelligent, but during my senior year when I told people what I got on my ACT they were like wtf? I thought you were dumb. And I'm like ... why did you think that? Nobody really had an answer lolol. Oh well. Now people pay me to do their homework for them so, tch.

[Reincarnate]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

I'll give you $5000 if you beat my ACT score

[Thatskier]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

I'll give you $5000 if you beat my ACT score

What is it

[SKG_Scintill]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

People say I'm intelligent, but I'm too lazy to bother.

[DarknessXoXLight]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

I'll give you $5000 if you beat my ACT score

I have a feeling you got a 36 lmfao.

[Reincarnate]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

mebbe

[darkshark]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

I'm only insecure in the fact that sometimes I tend to make people feel inferior =/
Contrary to my internet persona, I actually try to be really kind to everyone and help people as much as possible, so at times when I know I've kinda put a damper on someones self esteem mine takes a blow as well.

Otherwise, quest for knowledge never stops.


ps. Rubix if your score was so awesome why didn't you get a full scholarship or anything xD

[stargroup100]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

During my earlier years, I would often jump at the chance to demonstrate my intellect, either through excessively verbose speech or fact-spewing. A lot of people assumed that I was an arrogant asshole, when in actuality I was quite the opposite; a lonely kid with cripplingly low self-esteem who needed some sort of coping mechanism.

I've since mellowed out, but I wonder what relationships I might have either seriously damaged or missed out on because of my snobbish behavior. :/

I've definitely destroyed a lot of relationships because of this kind of situation. It's one the root causes of my depression and lack of social activity (and lack of desire to put myself in social situations).

However, I've learned through my experiences in college and various materials in the last few years that intelligence isn't all it's cracked up to be. I always dream about being one of greatest minds in the history of mathematics of physics or something to that extent, but I understand that if I were ever in that situation, I would be extremely unhappy.

The people who blindly push forward in the pursuit of intelligence sometimes unintentionally disregard wisdom. The strive so hard to find that accomplishment, happiness, and actualization that sometimes they miss what was in front of their eyes from the very beginning. Competition isn't enough, you need observation. Innovation isn't enough, you need imitation. Passion isn't enough, you need temperance. Skill isn't enough, you need experience.

Everything we do needs to have balance from all possible points of view from all possible areas. There is literally nothing in the universe that the quote "the more, the better" can apply literally to. Just as the intelligent people need to find a balance between intelligence and wisdom on a personal level, the communities need to find a balance between the intelligent people and the wise people, and the world needs a balance between smart people and stupid people.

"Ignorance is bliss."
Everyone has heard this quote before, but I don't think anyone realizes what this quote actually means. "Stupid" people are happy because they have nothing to worry about. They work to do the jobs that sustain themselves and their family, they enjoy life and live it. Only the smart people actually worry about the high level problems. They strive so hard to find that something extra, a level above what everyone else is content with, and when they have trouble meeting their expectations, they are not satisfied.

I've had my fair share of compliments, but I know I'm not brilliant. However, I know I'm not stupid. I'm stuck in this odd gap where I don't know what to do. I want to be on the end with the super geniuses of our time, but when that became unrealistic, I began to question myself, my purpose, and my happiness. Just as I had given up hope, I understood that I was exactly where I was supposed to be. It doesn't matter how smart I am or not. I found so many activities and subjects I'm grateful for, including music, math, rhythm gaming, volleyball, etc. I didn't need to be such an important academic icon. My contributions and happiness simply depended on myself enjoying life as I lived it, appreciating the delicate balance that is already established in the world and how I fit so well into it. Intelligence doesn't matter. The world is already growing and balancing itself over time. There is no reasons to set expectations that aren't realistic, because we are all where we are supposed to be.

A lot of this sounds cliche and trite, but there is a whole layer of meaning people don't realize until they experience it firsthand. There's no real way to describe it other than with these cliche sayings, but there's a reason why they are so well-known.

[stargroup100]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

ps. Rubix if your score was so awesome why didn't you get a full scholarship or anything xD

owned

[Reincarnate]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

No, you guys are both retarded.

Top schools don't offer merit-based aid because EVERYONE there has high merit. Aid is need-based, and each year costs like $50,000 plus the cost of food, clothes, and everything else you want to buy external to school itself. But I did have a crapton of scholarships going in. I still had quite a lot to take out in loans due to my father dying and my mother getting an asston of money out of insurance policies + the fact that my father had a large house, boat, etc -- assets that count against aid.

At any rate, I had like 2390 SAT and 36 ACT, 4.0 GPA, Harvard Book Award + Val status, blah blah blah, got a lot of money from all that alone plus extra cash from writing a bunch of BS essays.

[stargroup100]

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At any rate, I had like 2390 SAT...

durp you didn't get a perfect score your opinion is invalid

[Reincarnate]

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36 ACT is basically the same thing as 2400 SAT lol
besides had like 5 SAT2 800's so 790 is clearly just noise

[Kilroy_x]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

I am severely insecure about my intelligence, largely because even though I was understood to be absolutely exceptional from a young age, it was apparently more important to send me to an alternative school in order to correct my non-heteronormative behavior than it was to foster that intelligence in any way. I was f.u.c.k.ed out of all the standard contexts for establishing intelligence -> learning basic skills necessary for STEM fields -> getting into a good college -> learning important things there -> proving myself in that context/networking in that context -> becoming successful. I would have destroyed everyone here at everything if I had been educated properly. I am better than you. Fundamentally. I have just never been allowed to be.

[stargroup100]

Re: Are you insecure about your intelligence?

rubix is clearly insecure because he's trying to convince us he's smart by telling us his sat scores

cool story bro