wish me luck guys. i'm DOIN it.

the angel has visited me. I am so fucking happy. the past 25 minutes have been absolute fucking hell, and track 6 is a fucking bastion of hope in comparison. after listening to the previous 5 songs, this track is fucking brilliant. this is beauty. I've been swimming through a sea of endless hellfire and I've finally reached an island. an island of nails, but if I lay just right, the nails don't hurt.

track 7 just started. it's time to GO SWIMMING AGAIN, MY FRIENDS. AND I HAVE NO LIFE JACKET.

i have reached a state of nirvana. i am no longer capable of being tortured by this album. my hubris was sufficiently punished, and I have since then atoned. I am reborn in the flames of hellfire as a stronger being. track 10 pleads, begs, prays for the lord to have mercy on it's soul, and as I cry out to my empty, desolate bedroom, the lord has mercy on my soul. I am invincible. I am impervious. I do not feel the hell fire. I only see the light in the distance. there is only a short time until I reach the light, and all will be right in the world when I do. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close. I do not feel. I do not hear. I can only see. see with my eyes. see as I do. the light is so close.
the light is here. I am whole again. I have experienced hell and am no longer afraid to die. I now know that whenever I die, I will be judged as one who has walked through the shadow of the valley of death, and the gods will know of my experience, and will not wish this upon me ever again. my soul has been saved.