Old 05-30-2006, 12:02 AM   #1
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I am very sorry for being such an ass, jerk, ***, or whatever you want to call it. I am currently very very stressed out just from everything and I guess I come to the FFR Forums to vent a little bit. Sorry to everyone that I took my anger out on and those who were hurt by my posts. Well here it is...

My family isn't what you would call a "normal" family. My dad is a passive-agressive man who really doesn't know what is going on half the time. He chooses to ignore the obvious instead of dealing with the problem head on just because he finds it easier or he thinks that ignoring the problem will make it go away. I understand he had a very hard and painful childhood (it doesn't help that my grandmother on his side is an evil asian bitch. It may sound cruel to say that about my grandmother, but how would you feel if you were 8 and you were stuck at her house baby-sitting for 4 days while your grandmother and grandfather decide to drive up to vegas for the week without telling you?) My dad is always cooped up in his room just passing time and every now and again, would get into a fight with my mom about some little thing.

My mom is the crazy menopausal woman who has the shortest temper you could imagine. I would like to think of her as just an immature person stuck in a woman's body. If she doesn't get her way (whether it be something serious or something small as not getting to sit in the front seat. Yes, I'm serious, its happened before) she explodes and then throws a huge tantrum and basically destroys the peace in the house, or even in public. Even something as small as my sister and I wanting some candy, my mom will explode on us saying how it is unhealthy AND THEN go off and the most random topics like how we are irresponsible and then going on about how our grades are dropping and then saying we don't love her. Then she goes cries and runs into her room where she decides to harass my dad about why HE didn't do anything in that situation. She then always claims that my dad doesn't love her and then she continues to take out more of her anger on us (my sister and I). Then she threatens to take my sister and I and move to Visalia (where her parents live) after the divorce. (Notice how I don't use the past tense its because it has happened numerous times and it happened today AGAIN)

Well, my mom finally cracked one night back in January when I actually argued with her and screamed back at her because she was being EXTREMELY unreasonable. Everything crashed on that night when my dad (after being the quiet man for 15 years) decides to step in and try to solve the problem. As if things couldn't get worse, my mom orders my dad and me to move out of the house. So we do for a little bit and then she cries to us and we move back in.

I'm just really stressed out from school and my family so I'm sorry about all this ranting about my issues. I understand if you guys don't care at all because, after all, it is the Internet and for all you know, I could be lying and making this up just for the mere attention. Go ahead and think what you want, I think I just needed a place where I could just talk about my problems. If you guys have been through something similar, could you help me to cope with it or something? This thread was merely to explain my strange behavior these last few days. Any comments are greatly appreciated (well, the serious ones). Thanks.
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:19 AM   #2
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I feel ya "dawg"

All i can say is...uhm...well i really dont have any advice because i have no idea about this topic. Let me try and find Dr Phil...

Anyways..could luck with your family troubless...i'm a good vent by the way =D
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:31 AM   #3
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I honestly know how you feel. My parents fought to an extreme. All day they would fight and argue. A lot of times bringing in us (my sisters and me). They finally divorced. It's been more stressful since now my parents are always ragging on because of grades, and because I talk back to them. The smallest thing can tick off my mom and then she gets really unreasonable. My dad will scream his lungs out. He is a very big and intimidating man and it is scary to see him like that. I haven't been going through the best of times but I don't let it get to me. I've always considered myself a reasonable person so I try to just lay low. I try to do what I have to and just not talk that much to my dad (he's the one that I try to avoid, like going to his house). I try not to get too involved with them because they think of me as a messup. I don't take it hard because I know that they are just venting their frustrations on the closest thing possible (me). I don't enjoy my home life too much but I try to make it as peaceful as possible. Try to do the same.
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:44 AM   #4
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Well for the past few weeks, nothing has really come up at all. I think that made this particular event more dramatic and made a bigger impact on my life just because there was peace before the storm per se. I'm feeling really miserable right now and I have school tomorrow =/ I'll just hope for the best I guess. Thanks.
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:45 AM   #5
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Who's name is the mortgage under? If it's split or your dad's then your mom can't legally force you two to leave.
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:52 AM   #6
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I'm not sure. The thing is, my sister and I have decided to live with our dad just because we both don't want to deal with all the drama my mom brings along with her. I have discussed it with my dad and he says that he will try to do the best he can to have us go with him. Well, my mom and dad just got in another fight and this time it was over money. Apparently, my mom wants $3000 a month for 180 months, she wants dibs on my dad's life insurance, she wants HALF of what is made from when we sell the house (the house is worth over 800k) and she wants my dad to pay college for my sister and I. This is VERY unreasonable, and now I feel even worse because she is basically cutting my sister and I off from her and it seems as though she is trying to make life harder for my sister, my dad, and me. Its just a really depressing subject.
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:54 AM   #7
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school is a good thing. Let's you think about other things and let's you have some peace with your friends. Try not to worry about it, don't think about it, and have fun tomorrow.

EDIT:~: Just read your last post. I think you should tell your mom exactly what you just said. I don't know what her reaction is going to be, but I believe that she cares about you. Probably doesn't show it enough, but it's true deep down. If you tell her exactly how you feel without screaming and without provoking her she'll change her mind. Actually do it though. BUT imprortantly talk to her calm and don't provoke her. I agree with you that what she is doing is incredibly wrong. Hang on. It will all turn out for the best.
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Old 05-30-2006, 12:58 AM   #8
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Actually, I am quite happy to be going to school because it means getting away from my house and just spending some more time with friends. I think that a 3 day weekend right now was just overkill. Thanks a lot. I'll just try to relax =/
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Old 05-30-2006, 01:10 AM   #9
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I can't say that I know how you feel, but damn... hope everything clears up for `ye.
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If your mother really wants all those things it would probably take a court case. It seems unreasonable because it is.
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EDIT:~: Just read your last post. I think you should tell your mom exactly what you just said. I don't know what her reaction is going to be, but I believe that she cares about you. Probably doesn't show it enough, but it's true deep down. If you tell her exactly how you feel without screaming and without provoking her she'll change her mind. Actually do it though. BUT imprortantly talk to her calm and don't provoke her. I agree with you that what she is doing is incredibly wrong. Hang on. It will all turn out for the best.
That won't work. I know it will not. Don't give me crap "Oh, how do you know?" its because I know my mom and I know that she will just explode in my face. Well guess what? My mom announced that she will be going on vacation by herself for who knows how long. This really does give me the feeling that she doesn't give a damn about us. I mean, parents are supposed to be there to help their children along and support thme along the way right? Now, it feels like she is abandoning me. She hasn't talked to me in almost a month until tonight when she decides to scream at me and that whole month, she ignored me. She stopped picking my sister and I up from school, she doesn't cook anymore, she doesn't do anything for my sister and I anymore. I cannot think of one thing that she has done except for taking us to a dentist appointment a few days ago. This whole feeling of isolation from my family is really getting to me. Right after my parents announced the divorce, my sister changed drastically; she turned emo and started listening to depressing music and I think she actually was cutting herself at one point. I am the optimistic person though, so I try to look at this in a positive way as a way of teaching me some life lessons, but it is getting rather difficult to do this now that the situation is really getting out of control. I'm going to go to sleep... Maybe I'll feel a bit better tomorrow after I think about it.
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Well, on the bright side, it sounds like your dad will have no problem winning custody.
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Old 05-30-2006, 08:06 AM   #13
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I think you should spend some time in the Garbage Bin.

Not saying that this post belongs there. Just. It might make you feel better. It's a fun place. And you can bitch people out all you want.
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It sounds like you get along with your dad okay, which is a good thing. Yeah, parents can be really irrational, but my advice for you would be to stick through it. Just a few more years and you can make it on your own.
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You took your first AP tests this year, so I'm guessing you're a Junior/Senior. Just rough it out through high school then gtfo and live on-campus at college. Then get a job (not treasuretrooper rofl) and apartment and don't move back home. Be glad it's getting bad now and not years ago when you were far away from a time you'd be able to move out.

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She obviously just wants a set of icicles, but it sounds like she doesn't deserve mokbis. >=(
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... I can't believe you just made a MS reference.

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Don't worry about apologizing to people. Feeling bad about things you've done because of stress will only make you feel worse. No one really takes insults from unknowns over the internet seriously, anyway. Just don't worry about it. And as Chrissi said, if you ever want to vent your anger, feel free to do it in TGB. As long as you don't photoshop people's faces onto Hitler, you're fine.

As for weekends, get out of the house as much as possible, granted that's not one of the things that sets your mom off. Hope things turn out well.
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Exactly why I am never marrying or having children.
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You took your first AP tests this year, so I'm guessing you're a Junior/Senior. Just rough it out through high school then gtfo and live on-campus at college. Then get a job (not treasuretrooper rofl) and apartment and don't move back home. Be glad it's getting bad now and not years ago when you were far away from a time you'd be able to move out.

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She obviously just wants a set of icicles, but it sounds like she doesn't deserve mokbis. >=(
I'm a sophomore. Well now the house is quiet because my mom went on her unexpected "vacation" so my stress level went way down. Thanks a lot everyone once again. I was thinking about spending some time in tgb, but I think I might get carried away and turn my image into a huge asshole which really isn't me =/
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