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[rzr]

Wasn't intending on making a thread about this, but I figure you guys wouldn't mind hearing and it's something that FFR as a whole doesn't need to really know about, lol.

Anywho, so a few months ago I went to the free clinic since we don't have insurance, and found out I had an ulcer from drinking too much. So I stopped drinking for a few weeks, calmed my system down, and went right back up as hard as I could. Long story short, it only was a matter of time until the issue resurfaced.
Well, after being violently ill and missing work over the last few weeks, I came to the conclusion that I need to quit drinking.

Both of my parents are addicts and alcoholics, and I grew up telling myself I would never be like that. Seems I fell a little shy of this goal, lol. So while I'm still young and alive, I have to take this into my own hands before someone else like the cops or the grim reaper takes it in theirs.

I did try to quit before, but in my head, it was more under the pretense that I had to because of my health and because my wife/family always rag on me for constantly having whiskey in my pocket flask. I think, and hope, that I can convince myself this is for me. After playing lTWG with you guys the other night, I had a lot of fun. But, I realized it's not just in the real world where I make a fool of myself for being drunk. I let these demons take hold of me, and haven't gone a day without being smashed in years.

So, my friends, wish me luck. My goal is to quit drinking, except on a Friday night and allow myself to drink a few nips or so, but only if I can make it that far. And not allow myself to drink on any other day except Friday night. If I can take control and do this then perhaps one day I can go back to drinking socially, or just on the weekends. And if I have a few nips Friday and can't escape that Saturday, then I know I have to completely eliminate it from my life. So again, wish me luck guys, hopefully my posting will reflect this too haha.

[j-rodd123]

best of luck, wish u the best!

[AragakiAyase]

you got this!

[rzr]

Thanks, guys! It's weird how much you don't think about drinking when you do it, but when you're not you think about it a lot more.
Same seems to apply to FFR lol, when I'm playing it I don't think about it, when I'm not I wanna play.

[thesunfan]

glgl

[justin_ator]

Good luck! Check back in here from time to time and let us know how things are going.

[rzr]

Definitely! I also deleted my Facebook, so I'll probably be spending a lot more time back here haha!

[Boss Bitch]

!!!! So proud of you

[rzr]

Hey you can post now, haha. Make an intro!
EDIT: This is my wife, guys haha

[_Zenith_]

Hope the best man! Be like me and don't drink; just convert excess drinking into excess smoking and you'll be 10/10 guaranteed.

[rzr]

Bahah, that's the plan. More money for buds now, should keep me distracted when I'm feigning for a shot. My goal is to eventually be able to quit smoking and take it in moderation, but since it doesn't harm me and only helps for now, I'm not pushing that side too hard

[T-Force]

Best of luck, man!

[dAnceguy117]

[Netjet!]

Best of luck man, you can do it!

[choof]

Originally Posted by rzr

Bahah, that's the plan. More money for buds now, should keep me distracted when I'm feigning for a shot. My goal is to eventually be able to quit smoking and take it in moderation, but since it doesn't harm me and only helps for now, I'm not pushing that side too hard

a lot of people have used weed to help with alcohol addictions; I did when I was in colorado last year after I was basically slapped in the face by my ex-gf about my alcohol abuse. nowadays I drink very rarely, maybe once a week. I smoke slightly more often than I should, also maybe once a week, but you never get hangovers and you are in far more control

good luck mang, if you're doing it for yourself and not for anyone else's sake, you'll do good

[Wayward Vagabond]

Do wat you gotta do mang and wish you the best of luck man

Also miss you bro

[Deadlyx39]

[rzr]

Ayy, haha you guys are a huge help, it's very helpful having support here and in life since this community is important to me. I appreciate the kind words, choof. I actually thought about it a lot the other day and I've been thinking that once I get drinking under control I'll try to quit smoking (daily) too. I always figured I'd have to join the army to quit smoking, and in that I'd turn further towards alcohol. But I see the benefit of kicking the sauce first, then worrying about smoke.

Anyway, update! Week one went about as planned. I wholeheartedly intended on getting shitfaced Saturday (my cheat day), but when it came around I opted to get some coolers with my wife and drink a few nips. It was weird, nothing like the drunk I prefer, more like when I was a kid drinking smirnoff and that's just wasting time.
Sooo, I was only supposed to drink Saturday night. But then Sunday we bought a new car (which we've been trying to do for a long time) so I decided to finish the 12 pack (:

I don't think it's bad, but since my goal is to gain complete control I will not be drinking next weekend as a result. After that, if I don't fiend for it by next weekend, I'd like to try to kick it until the holiday!