Bill Zeller Suicide Note

KungFuHustle · 01-7-2011, 10:37 PM

http://gizmodo.com/5726667/the-agoni...yline=true&s=i

**cry4eternity** · 01-7-2011, 11:09 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Link

Bill Zeller was a talented programmer...

left him unable to interface with the world

But seriously, aren't suicides most prominent this time of year?
That is one long, detailed suicide note

.

It sucks that people feel they have to do this

.

**Reincarnate** · 01-7-2011, 11:18 PM

I read that note earlier today -- it's so sad.

It's infuriating that some jackass caused this guy so many years of pain (resultant of physical and emotional abuse when he was a very young child) for his own temporary sick pleasures. Not only that, but he has taken away so many years that he could have lived happily past the age of 23.

**AlexDest** · 01-7-2011, 11:22 PM

Sad that he had to decide to go with suicide, being abused in your childhood and depressed all your life can get tiring and can lead to bad events in the future. :<

Ickalanda · 01-8-2011, 12:13 AM

R.I.P.

I kind of feel like this time of year with winter, Christmas, and New Years all together make people start to think about their lives, and if they aren't happy with it more likely do something like this unfortunately =[.

I am sorry that anyone ever has to feel this way

NFD · 01-8-2011, 12:29 AM

i have the right to make stupid decisions

and u exercised it to the fullest bud

**flashpantss** · 01-8-2011, 12:42 AM

Sad to see people do this to themselves. It's also bad that people have to go through abuse as well. R.I.P.

**Superfreak04** · 01-8-2011, 12:58 AM

Wow, what a horrible life, I feel so bad for him. R.I.P. Bill Zeller.

**G.S.M** · 01-8-2011, 01:12 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Superfreak04

Wow, what a horrible life, I feel so bad for him. R.I.P. Bill Zeller.

Agreed.

fido123 · 01-8-2011, 11:18 AM

Not that I actually care that he's dead, as I have no idea who he is, taking a look into a life that sad really makes me feel differently about the sexual abuse of children and suicide. I've always kinda been on the fence weather I agreed with suicide being selfish. This article really shows how terrible life can be. I always knew children being abused was bad, but I didn't know it could fuck somebody up to this extent, I have a close friend who went through something similar to this.

**Reincarnate** · 01-8-2011, 11:34 AM

I already said this in the suicide thread, but imo it's both selfish to commit suicide, but just as selfish to expect someone to live under suffering.

There *are* problems with our counseling/medical systems. Patient/doctor confidentiality is truly thin. If there is a justifiable "duty to warn/protect" over things like suicidal/homicidial/abusive behavior, that confidentiality is toast whether you like it or not and suddenly a bunch of people will try to butt control into your life. This did not happen to me personally, but rather an acquaintance who went to uni counseling services (after working up the courage to get help) because she was an anorexic cutter. They ended up contacting parents, teachers, etc -- it completely sideblinded her. Had she been any more unstable, she would have probably taken her own life. I'm not even sure, to this day, if she's recovered properly.

So it can be quite hard for someone with trust issues to trust doctors when there's a good chance that trust will be nuked -- leaving decisions up to people who start to tread on areas you've carefully tried to keep under control.

**albaneenesk8r** · 01-8-2011, 11:54 AM

Mulie · 01-8-2011, 12:04 PM

I hate these threads.

ledwix · 01-8-2011, 10:17 PM

It's too bad we don't have drugs that erase select memories. Or if they do exist, they aren't widely known about or easily accessible or well-tested.

**revolutionomega** · 01-9-2011, 12:39 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ledwix

It's too bad we don't have drugs that erase select memories. Or if they do exist, they aren't widely known about or easily accessible or well-tested.

Try the movie eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. Crazy concept and very well done. Also, this is really sad, especially considering the hit to our own community not too long ago.

**eurostud4** · 01-9-2011, 09:16 AM

I can't stand how many people are so miserable these days...

such a shame

**revolutionomega** · 01-9-2011, 11:02 AM

Yeah seriously dude. But man I read the whole thing and some of the following comments and jesus some fucked up people in this world. Ignorant religious dickwads around oy.

**foilman8805** · 01-10-2011, 03:10 AM

Damn, that letter was raw as fuck. I hope very much that this guy has found the sweet release he was so desperately seeking.

ghost- · 01-10-2011, 03:46 PM

wow, I'm so sorry for what this man had to go through. I'm glad he doesn't have to live with the darkness anymore.

**C@!** · 01-10-2011, 04:12 PM

I feel really bad for this guy and feel that suicide is never the option but if it caused him that much pain he had the right.. RIP

01-7-2011, 10:37 PM	#1
KungFuHustle FFR Player Join Date: Dec 2008 Posts: 34	Bill Zeller Suicide Note http://gizmodo.com/5726667/the-agoni...yline=true&s=i

01-7-2011, 11:18 PM	#3
Reincarnate x'); DROP TABLE FFR;-- Join Date: Nov 2010 Posts: 6,332	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note I read that note earlier today -- it's so sad. It's infuriating that some jackass caused this guy so many years of pain (resultant of physical and emotional abuse when he was a very young child) for his own temporary sick pleasures. Not only that, but he has taken away so many years that he could have lived happily past the age of 23.

01-7-2011, 11:22 PM	#4
AlexDest good hot Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: North Carolina Age: 29 Posts: 5,309	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note Sad that he had to decide to go with suicide, being abused in your childhood and depressed all your life can get tiring and can lead to bad events in the future. :< Last edited by AlexDest; 01-8-2011 at 05:15 AM..

01-8-2011, 12:13 AM	#5
Ickalanda FFR Player Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: Michigan, United States Age: 33 Posts: 113	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note R.I.P. I kind of feel like this time of year with winter, Christmas, and New Years all together make people start to think about their lives, and if they aren't happy with it more likely do something like this unfortunately =[. I am sorry that anyone ever has to feel this way __________________ R.I.P. Steve the jellygod My StarCraft II YouTube Channel!

01-8-2011, 12:29 AM	#6
NFD FFR Player Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: I see us on a beach down in, Mexico Age: 30 Posts: 4,715	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note i have the right to make stupid decisions and u exercised it to the fullest bud __________________

01-8-2011, 12:42 AM	#7
flashpantss Party Hard Join Date: Aug 2006 Posts: 1,310	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note Sad to see people do this to themselves. It's also bad that people have to go through abuse as well. R.I.P. __________________ 10th in 5th Official Tournament in D3 3RD in Dragons Fury: Custom Tournament #5 in D5A Best AAA's= Frictional Nevada (FIRST FGO) Kyrie (ONI Get), Eradication, Of Course you Need and nEed and neEd and NEED ME, Cinnamon Roll (FIRST TO AAA)

01-8-2011, 12:58 AM	#8
Superfreak04 FFR Veteran Join Date: Jan 2007 Age: 33 Posts: 2,407	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note Wow, what a horrible life, I feel so bad for him. R.I.P. Bill Zeller. __________________

01-8-2011, 11:18 AM	#10
fido123 FFR Player Join Date: Sep 2005 Age: 32 Posts: 4,245	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note Not that I actually care that he's dead, as I have no idea who he is, taking a look into a life that sad really makes me feel differently about the sexual abuse of children and suicide. I've always kinda been on the fence weather I agreed with suicide being selfish. This article really shows how terrible life can be. I always knew children being abused was bad, but I didn't know it could fuck somebody up to this extent, I have a close friend who went through something similar to this.

01-8-2011, 11:34 AM	#11
Reincarnate x'); DROP TABLE FFR;-- Join Date: Nov 2010 Posts: 6,332	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note I already said this in the suicide thread, but imo it's both selfish to commit suicide, but just as selfish to expect someone to live under suffering. There are problems with our counseling/medical systems. Patient/doctor confidentiality is truly thin. If there is a justifiable "duty to warn/protect" over things like suicidal/homicidial/abusive behavior, that confidentiality is toast whether you like it or not and suddenly a bunch of people will try to butt control into your life. This did not happen to me personally, but rather an acquaintance who went to uni counseling services (after working up the courage to get help) because she was an anorexic cutter. They ended up contacting parents, teachers, etc -- it completely sideblinded her. Had she been any more unstable, she would have probably taken her own life. I'm not even sure, to this day, if she's recovered properly. So it can be quite hard for someone with trust issues to trust doctors when there's a good chance that trust will be nuked -- leaving decisions up to people who start to tread on areas you've carefully tried to keep under control.

01-8-2011, 12:04 PM	#13
Mulie FFR Player Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Vancouver Age: 35 Posts: 190	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note I hate these threads.

01-8-2011, 10:17 PM	#14
ledwix Giant Pi Operator Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: California Age: 33 Posts: 2,878	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note It's too bad we don't have drugs that erase select memories. Or if they do exist, they aren't widely known about or easily accessible or well-tested.

01-9-2011, 09:16 AM	#16
eurostud4 FFR Veteran Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: thicket of solitude Age: 32 Posts: 995	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note I can't stand how many people are so miserable these days... such a shame __________________ FFR. R.I.P. Steve <3

01-9-2011, 11:02 AM	#17
revolutionomega FFR Veteran Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: White Plains, New York Age: 32 Posts: 2,240	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note Yeah seriously dude. But man I read the whole thing and some of the following comments and jesus some fucked up people in this world. Ignorant religious dickwads around oy. __________________ "AW MAN, WE SUCK AGAIN!" - Rob Schneider, The Waterboy (1998)

01-10-2011, 03:10 AM	#18
foilman8805 smoke wheat hail satin Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: LA baby Age: 35 Posts: 5,704	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note Damn, that letter was raw as fuck. I hope very much that this guy has found the sweet release he was so desperately seeking.

01-10-2011, 03:46 PM	#19
ghost- Banned Join Date: Dec 2010 Location: Nebraska Age: 31 Posts: 787	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note wow, I'm so sorry for what this man had to go through. I'm glad he doesn't have to live with the darkness anymore.

01-10-2011, 04:12 PM	#20
C@! zןnɹ oןos Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: AZ Age: 30 Posts: 450	Re: Bill Zeller Suicide Note I feel really bad for this guy and feel that suicide is never the option but if it caused him that much pain he had the right.. RIP

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