[radioamor]

my regular speech is a variant of how i type, but is generally riddled with starts and stops as my brain attempts to find more needlessly obscure words to replace simpler ones in a vacuous and farcical attempt to seem like a more valuable person. so the short answer is that i probably talk this way to deflect from any number of shortcomings i have. that way, i can throw out sophomoric words like "defenestration" and "paroxysm" and smoke and mirrors my way into artificial validation.

how does it feel to ask a question so pedestrian and basic that i have already prefabricated an unusually guarded and gratuitously defensive answer waiting for it?