[Psychotik]

Originally Posted by rayword45

I just feel alone. I have friends who care about me and a family that loves me, yet I still feel alone. I'm completely socially retarded. I've burned a lot of bridges over the years and some with people I'll have to see often. I want to repair those bridges, but people are stubborn (we both wronged each other, why can't they see it from the other side? Jesus fuck people).

I relate to this way more than I'd like to. Every I do I seem to purposefully make myself more and more isolated. I've burned at least two set bridges with two groups of friends. I really don't have any friends anymore. I moved out into an apartment, living alone. I avoid any type of social interaction. I hate being alone but I do this to myself and I don't know why.

I don't even know what I suffer from from. Probably depression, but it would be self-diagnosed and I don't trust myself to get things right.