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No.. I understand you completely Spook.. my friend has almost the same problem with his stomach.. and he has actually confessed to me that after these doctor treaments that hes on if they can't find a cure or something to help it out, he will probably commit suicide.. now this is my best friend for well over 10 years... lives across the street from me.. and i see him almost evreyday.. thinking about losing him one day just about brings tears to my eyes.. ( for fact just typing that little bit did bring tears to my eyes).. but you know what he does about his problem??.. believes.. he has faith that there is a cure for it and he's going to stay alive and deal with it until they do find out what exactly he has wrong with him and how to fix it.. I may come off as im saying "Just go kill yourself", but im not.. im just stressing the fact that killing your self is a stupid thing to do.. and im sorry you had to go through all that, and assuming its better now, im glad for that also.. see you also believed.. you stuck through the pain and got past it.. you didn't kill yourself after a month or 2 months or even a year of pain.. for your tolerance and faith in yourself you were rewarded with life.. life without the pain... a good life with friends and people who care about you.. just to think.. if you would of commited suicide you would of died miserably.. but not you can rest in peace with your head high and a smile on your face knowing that you did the best with what you had and lead the best life you could have..