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Originally Posted by XelNya
What was figuring out you wanted to go forward with it like for you? I'm curious of like how you approached telling yourself it's what you felt you needed to do to feel comfortable with who you are.
This is likely worded super shitty, and if it is, I'm sorry, I can't word it any better in my head x.x
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it's worded fine
well i always felt that i couldn't express myself as a girl because it wouldn't be accepted by society, so i never told anyone how i felt except for my mom, but she kept think it was a phase and even though i told her i connect more with girls than boys, she kept saying that girls can be just as mean as boys and that girls can be the same way as boys, and when i cried telling her how much i didn't want to have facial hair she just thought it was because most boys didn't like facial hair
i'm not trying to blame her, i'm just saying that that's why i felt like i couldn't express myself and why i didn't tell anyone else until 10th grade when i told my dad and brother and 12th grade when i told my best friend and my creative writing class
so until 10th grade i didn't feel like i could express myself as a girl and i kept how i felt to myself; however even though i always detested my body since i was little i didn't know i identified as a girl until 7th grade when the class was doing an assignment about what it would be like to be the opposite gender for a day and i thought to myself, "i'm already a girl" and smiled to myself
also in high school even though i kept my feelings to myself i tried to be more feminine by practicing "walking like a girl" and changing my writing to be "feminine handwriting" and even using more "feminine words" which is silly because i've always been a girl and i don't need to change the way i do anything to be what society views as feminine
so by the time i was almost finished with high school i had enough of hiding who i really am and not expressing myself and i promised myself i would start expressing myself as a girl as soon as college started and i started wearing feminine clothes and taking hormones a year later and changing my legal name and telling all my teachers to call me Rebecca until i could finally change my legal name at my college
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Originally Posted by komochii
are u cute
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that's an opinion