[Spenner]

Originally Posted by blanky!

aarrrgghh am I not being clear enough
my bad

Here's what I'm trying to say: understand the feelings that lead to suicidal thoughts. (or at least try to understand if you've never had them yourself) I am not trying to condone suicide. I am trying to say that repression is unhealthy, and that one should try to come to terms with and accept his/her own thoughts, no matter how extreme.

What I see in all of the threads like these are "don't kill urself u have so much to live for". Yes, the intentions are good. No, I don't believe that the person in question should try to commit suicide. But what some of that message sends is the notion that one completely block his/her bad thoughts off -- which cannot be done without incurring an enormous amount of willpower, which is hardly what someone with depression has.

I hope that clarified some of my thoughts, because I think a lot of you are misreading what I have to say.

Let me tell you this, being someone who was probably as close to as utterly depressed as you, and dysfunctional, I realized forced ignorance, making it a habit, is the only solution. Just have to practice doing it-- a LOT

You think you have no way out. But its because there is no way out when you're on the inside of a loop. A thought loop. It doesn't go away until you find some reason to make it seem silly to be upset by certain things or try to associate it with neutrality... your train of thought, that is.

Good news, thought loops aren't permanent. Even ones that feel so convincing. Glad I've lived to have experienced it myself. I had no idea it were possible to get better.

Rapta, don't think about this so much. It is creating a problem for yourself. A loop :/