[ShAiOnEi]

I didn't believe it myself I had the same objective thoughts about this topic. I used to always think I want to believe in it but in the back of my mind I thought this isn't logical. The funny thing is nothing was ever going right in my life for 2 years after I was discharged from the airforce. I lost jobs moved from place to place struggling with a place to live.

When my son was born we had been staying at my wife's father's house, the day after he was born I wasn't allowed to live there so the only place left for me was florida. Still I kept getting and losing jobs nothing was working for me it was like I felt empty all the time no motivation, no drive just nothing.

My last job that I lost I told my boss how I felt and he invited me to church and kept writing me sending me gifts 2 months later I decided to go. The first day I went I felt an overwhelming sense of hope/faith. I was welcomed by everyone there alot of people knew I was coming since I let my boss know but it was great they saw a new face and they were glad I had came. A few weeks later I landed a good job in downtown Disney a huge weight seemed to lift off of my shoulders I didn't feel as empty it was like a candle was lit inside me. Now if you want to think of these things as pure luck or coincidence that's ok I'm not here to persuade just to enlighten from my experience.

What I am trying to say is hopefully keeping on topic is that faith may be hard to understand right now in your life I know the answers aren't always clear and you reach out for logical understanding but it's not easy it doesn't just come to you. You have to pursue it reach out and ask god there is no other way that I have tried. Christian faith is a relationship in you and god no one else can or should get in between that relationship it is only you who truly influences that. I don't mean to offend anyone by my comments but I felt like I had to say something.