[ddrxero64]

This is where I would have doubled if not tripled that post.

I'm like a computer running on 1% battery, I'm running out of motivation. I have one more thing happening for me, and if that doesn't go right, I think I'm just going to retire.

QED downloaded stepmania, joined OD and made files. He wasn't accepted by the community for whatever reasons, and he left. What qualifies him to represent a stepmania workshop? I don't care how he steps, because there is no right way. But looking at the flipside, he thinks he's stepping the right way. He's just as wrong as everyone else. I on the other hand try to be open to suggestions. His workshop was biased, and even in the attempt to encourage people to play and make files for stepmania did he fail horribly. Don't bother defending QED, because he's wrong. Not on how to step, on thinking that his way is better.

I'm getting ready to retire. I've had enough of the community. People here can't make one simple move, create one simple graphic, and can't decide to just try someone else's idea without having to rebel or disagree. Everyone here feels that their opinion is more important than the next person. I see myself a year from now playing some other game on some other site being a nobody. The way it should be really, because my work here is in vain.

I've been typing and doing things for people for the past 3 days. I've pulled an all nighter, and it's 10:45 am. And yet I sit here typing. You can accuse me of just writing out of anger all you want, but I write out of disappointment. I've run out of this motivation and patience. I've gone into debt and lost the opportunity to go to college trying to revive stepmania. I admit, I'm an idiot for having put so much effort into this community. Who am I to think I could be the next synthlight. It's ridiculous to see a thread like this now, because I've been speaking these words since before SMO shut down. I will pull a post from February of last year showing the same dedication I had, and showing the same concern I had for the community. This only shows how much nothing has changed.

I have one email to send today, and it'll probably decide my fate in this community. If it goes well, I could have something good happening for SMO. If it doesn't, well, it just might be time to say my goodbyes. I've run my life into rock bottom trying to bring this community together. stepmania.com can't even respond to stepmaniaonline.com huh. That's where I realized how sad things have become.