[bender5]

Well at the moment it seems that maybe the thing to do would be to stop playing stepmania for a little while. Let things in your personal life just kind of level out. When you are more collected it will be easier for you to post calmly and people will generally like seeing your posts more.

Seek out a friend and just talk. I know that you must have someone you can talk to. Trust me just letting go in front of someone will help enormously.

I do hope everything goes well for you