~Neverending Sorrow~
-Rewind690.


	I one day came out of my darkness and into a luminous universe brung about by 
radiant individuatlity. It was at that moment where i lost feeling and ultimately became
lost in a state of anger and love. Never in my personal experiences could i have ever
imagined a force so beautiful, but yet so hellishly tenacious. I was chosen from pure
destiny to see from blind eyes. Why? Because my reward turns out to be the most angelic
being ive ever dreamed about. Her essence shines like a moon touching a clear blue sea in
the middle of the night. Her eyes beg me to look no furthur. Her divine being shows me that 
dreams are made reality.
	She has not changed, but her aura has. Shes givin me the path out of my living hell
and into my living dream. But is a living dream something that i want to take a grasp on?
Isnt it just something we all fantasize about? Apparantly, but my experiences say otherwise.
Falsehoods being brought upon by my correct believings, hence the reason i am here.
Unbelievably beautiful is all that i can muster from my thoughts at this point in time. I 
can not escape it, i can not stop it, i can believe in it, that is what shall be done. 
	I am believing and believing as never before. These invisible love bound holds have
loosened and i can now see. Shes here, as radiant and as beautiful as ever. My eyes this
time do not decieve me from whats standing directly in front of me. I am shaking every way
possible right now. Is this normal? I could not say, but i can believe. And seeing is 
believing as i now know from what shes put me through. I can hear a very true, but held back
laugh from an angelic angel. No, no no this is not as believed, though it is as i thought.
And thoughts speak over the meaning of believing in my world, never has that been something
i actually believed in either. Now here i stand, in front of my world, my past and my future
To see her. I am at a loss for words as she can throw my whole world back at me. I find
strength within myself to actually move, but i feel like i am not getting anywhere. I can
see here face, god shes beautiful. And still at a loss for words i am, but she has yet one 
message for me. Im believing shes going to apologize for her and my own self being, but no.
Of course not, what could i have possibly been believing in. My last words that i heard
from her before im trapped in a neverending pain of sorrow are nothing. Her lips move but
dont tell a story. She walked away into that heavenly light i believed i could  have walked
into as well. Believing is something i will never do again, my thoughts were true...



	Back again so to speak, and pain is at its worst. I was doing everything as right as
humanly possible until spoken otherwise. A compelling force has taken her by the wings. No,
not possible, im here how can this be happening? I can see right through the lies, and even
its thoughts. But for some reason this force is giving me false illusions, and im falling
in. Im blindsided and now skeptical about both of my eyes. This is not happening, im saying 
to myself over and over again. But right in front of me lays truth, and truth does not lie
for its the olny inanimate force i believe. Ive become full of pain, anger and sorrow, but i
let not these take over me, i watch as if i didnt know. Now is the time.
	Ive been caught up in "illusions" for too long now, time to break free. Why i say,
why and why my lips spout out. Maybe why is not the right question to be asked at a time of
chaotic lust. I call her name from miles away with all the heart i have, and yet she does
not respond. Moving closer I am, moving closer to be in the presence of true beauty. Please
i say, please don't. And there it is, the compelling force, smirking, smirking in my face.
	Im blown away, both by beauty and passion. I can not think of any way to conquer a
force so unfamiliar, so unreal and yet so evil. Is there something im not seeing? Something
so blank thats not possibly visible? No, it can not be, for i am familiar of my surroundings
and my disadvantages. Think, think is all i can possibly do right now, but my concious tells
truth. It speaks, for all beauty there is dreadfulness, for all dreadfulness there is a
force. Its clear to me now, so clear it is. There i go, with all my heart and strength I 
feircly approach this force. Whilst approaching i see her, and i fall into her grasp, and
never do i want it to let go. But i know what must be done, and finished it will be. There I
stand, as bold as ever. Looking her dead in those paranoing eyes, i say I love you, and I
never want to let go. There it goes, my heart, my soul and him. Never in my experiences
could i have imagined what that force was. God, i dont want to move, let alone speak. But 
here she is sitting next to me, not because shes forced to, because she chooses to. And
thats what ive been looking for. Beautiful.....



				I love her...