What are your perceptions of yourself and your intelligence?

[ScylaX]

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I don't like considering myself superior even though I have a great self esteem and shit because I'm INTJ, therefore I process by logical thinking and make a really really great analysis of myself for whatever reason and I ended up telling me to myself I was pretty competent. However I can occasionnally meet full-despair phases where, even though I'm really really confident, I feel like all of that is vanity, as futile as anything else I could think at the moment - it happens usually when I'm really disillusioned, it can be the slightest detail. But I quickly recover from that state in a few hours, usually once I went through a LOAD of research to extend my knowledge.

I rely on my knowledge to make reasoning, however I always, always manage to have my own opinion on something and develop it in a way it's MY idea and didn't took it from somewhere else. Doctus cum libro is one of my greatest fears, to be totally dependent of the books I read, not being able to think by myself : it's usually when an event makes me think that I break up in self-denial, telling to myself I'm some piece of shit or whatever. And then bewm - it's like magic, I feel happy again.

Even though my ego is great, I try not to feel superior to others and be objective on my own person. I'm not that great, I could be better, but I'm not also dumb, I have qualities, and always am tactical when it comes to any sort of thinking or arguing (heh another INTJ trait). I'm making meta-analysis, it's the ground of my ego. I hate when people happens to boast about their IQ, I didn't made any *real* IQ test because I don't have any personal time to spend with that kind of thing (it's such a hassle to move to some place to do it etc) so I score around 125 - 132 on internet IQ test, that's pretty much it, the MBTI is a way better road to know myself than IQ test, I find they're more a matter of ego-boosting and auto-biasing than anything else