[Tantric]

Well this topic has kinda died sorry it took me a while to tell you guys what happend but i asked her when i went to see her but she started balling and she couldnt tell me then cuz she had to get back to school...but heres what she said...heh...

Hey there. i have decided that... well god, i don't want to, i really
don't
but i have to, i have to shurt you out. i'm sry. it's the only way i'm
going
to be abledeal. i'm sry, you don't even know. i was crying today... and
well
every other time we've seen eachother b/c i realized that the only way
i'll
be able to do this is if i do shut you out. i'm sry that this comes at
a
shitty time and that you won't like this decision but it's the decision
i'm
making non the less. you don't know how much it hurts me to do this.
but i
can't continue with you in my life. that the 'complicated' thing. i
need you
out. i want you to come back, o my god i do, but i just can't deal with
this
anymore. i'm sry, i'll always love you, forever, and maybe one day...
we'll
find eachother and be able to get married like we said we want to,
we'll
have Kevyn and Ian. but right now, i just hurt too much. really i am
sry,
you don't even know. always, and forever, -C-