how can?ppl think life is great.... life sucks, im not emo but im soooo sick of ppl controlling my life nd telling me what to do whether it parents or boyfriends i just wanna be free my soul cries out for help......HELP!!!!

i am that beautiful all american girl, i am that country loveable sweet girl next door, but latelt i have been letting people change me, hunter is the total opposite of me but i still love him. I believe everyone deserves a chance but unfortunately some people think otherwise. I hate it when people don't give me the time of day. its time for a change, drillteam,cheerleading, volleyball and trying to be thhe best is no longer my number 1 priority. GOD is my number one my heart my soul my everything he is incontrol of my life now and forever til i die. I love god and its time for me to pay my dues and get out there and serve him to the fullest no doubt. I havent been in dallas a long time but god had tested mt patience for starting a fca and i gave up, now he is leading me to Garland and i wont give up this time im going to be the best christain i can be.......... Jon Rush inspired me to get out there and keep going and for that i thank him!!!!! i love whoever reads this and give me some feedback thank you all!!!!!!!! im out!!!

why come whenever i get close to someone i let them change me then they leave? why when i think im in love that person breaks my heart? why is god leading me all these different places? why don't i know my purpose? why am i letting money be the biggest factor in my life? why when someone says they will never hurt me they do anyway? why am i letting people get to me? i don't know!!!!!