when i feel myself falling
into the darkness that consumes me whole
i think of you
and i come back
to be by your side
so lets walk on this street
that leads to the world
holding hands
forgetting the pain and sorrow
just you and me

Come to me in my dreams,
And then by day,
I shall be well again,
For so the night will more than pay,
The hopeless longing of the day.

I woke up this morning,
My heart lay bare,
Looked all around me,
There was nobody there,
I found myself thinking,
Why the hell do I care?
Deep in my soul.
There’s nothing left to spare,
So I start to realize,
I still have love to share.

Time flies by,
Do you pay attention?
If you don’t stop to look,
You might miss something,
Do you stop to sit down and look back?
Look at all the good times you had,
With friends and family,
Because if you don’t they could disappear,
In the blink of an eye,
Let the bad be forgotten,
It’s happened and you don’t realize how,
Important anyone is until they disappear,
Now I realize what I’ve should’ve seen,
But never did,
Until it was too late,
I never realized he’s been missed so much,
Or how bad it would take a toll on everyone,
But that’s what I wanted.
Then,
But now I live with the daily regret,
Or telling him I wished he was dead.
Then it did,
He was dead within the week.
But I know,
No one can cure the pain,
This pain is only for me to bare.
No one can take the pain,
No matter…
How hard they try.
No one can help me now.
But I’ve caused all this pain.
So I deserve it.

I hate the way I feel,
No matter what I do,
The more I try to talk,
About how I feel,
The more I want,
The pain to go away,
So into the bathroom I go,
Desperately searching for the razor,
Ripping through things tearing the bathroom cabinet apart,
Where the HELL is that damn thing,
One little slice that’s all I need wrong,
I cut once then again I can’t stop,
It makes me feel better,
No more pain,
I don’t care,
How much blood that I lose,
I am hoping that I die,
I feel no pain,
Nothing at all,
You want to help me,
You beg me to stop,
I don’t think that you understand,
Even though you say that you do,
All I hear is you yelling at me,
Every single day of my life,
I feel ashamed,
I hide the scars,
That are on my arms,
I have tried to stop,
It only lasts a few weeks,
Then the cycle starts again.