Posted on: July 2, 2013, at 08:36:15am [1 comment]
My profanity might get a bit strong at times... just a forewarning if that type of stuff offends you for whatever reason.
I started playing FFR back when I was like... what now, 9 years old? 10? And decided to make an account a couple of years ago. It started me on my journey to enjoying not just rhythm games, but music in general. The reason why I decided to write this was because I was notified of ULTIMEGA's friend request, and felt like getting on this site one last time. Well, actually, that's probably going too far; I'll still get on this site time to time, but I certainly won't be playing FFR any time soon. The reason is because of the competitive addiction I gained towards Stepmania nearly two years ago. Prior to finding out about SM, I couldn't earn a single tier point in FFR at all, and my best FCs were with rank 9 songs (now would be rank 60s-70s, with the new ranking system). I saw a thread about SM and got interested, and so I downloaded it.
It wasn't much later that I decided that SM was much better than FFR (imo), so I pretty much just quit FFR then and there. I got much better at SM, and by the time I felt like coming back to FFR about three quarters of a year ago, I managed to earn 9 tier points in a matter of minutes by getting decent scores on 7-8 FGOs. I still wasn't at my peak or anything, and even today I don't think I am, but the point is, is that when I went back to FFR that one time to see how much I had improved, I realized that my OS, as well as my general connection with whatever server FFR happens to run on, sucks. I lagged a fuckload with the default FFR engine, lagged a fuckload with Legacy, and continued to try various engines to no avail. I downloaded the standalones to my flash player so that I could try to play them without my OS interfering, but, although it was slightly better, I still had slight bits of lag that rendered my accuracy to... well... shit. Thus the whole "every song that I can practically AAA on SM I can barely even FC on FFR" thing.
Angered by this assfuckery, I decided to just give up on FFR and go back to SM. Now, I'm at a bit of a plateau on SM. I JUST managed to beat MIHC for the first time about two weeks ago, can almost FC Vertex Delta as well as Le Chemin De Fer, and pass nearly every song on The HSMP series (I can probably FC about less than half of the songs, and AAA one or two), aside from the obvious Pandemonic Hyperblast and fuckshitcrazy charts like such.
I'm no Dossar, and I don't plan to be, but I can at least officially retire from FFR and possibly competitive SM as well in peace knowing that I got as good as I did. I know it sounds fishy to say as much, but I literally can't post any videos of my good plays/SDGs on SM because every time I try to load up Fraps or Hypercam to record it, I lag so much that I can barely even pass the songs that I normally FC. Amongst other things, I lost a lot of my pictures of good runs when a thunderstorm short-circuited my computer and deleted some bits of data all around my C drive. I could always just try for some more good runs anyway, but I don't think I'd want to/it wouldn't be necessary.
The reason why I say this is because I'm kind of bored of SM in general. All of this competitive playing of it (even though it's not even SMO) has dragged me out pretty badly. Albeit, I don't feel like my fingers are worsening because of it, like Jerry_DB's fingers were of FFR, I still just don't feel like it any more. The reason why I said the latter about it not being necessary is that no one really knows me enough either on SM OR on FFR at all for anyone to really give two fucks anyway. SM I wasn't popular because I didn't have SMO and always just kept the scores with myself, never uploading them. FFR I wasn't popular because I wasn't that good at the time, and even then I never really tried to become popular.
Nonetheless, it was fun while it lasted. I may have gotten pissed off a couple times on both SM and FFR (blackflag on Charlo's chart of The Gush on x1.2 ... fuck my ass and call me Sally), but ultimately, it was a wild ride that has affected me greatly. While I played FFR, my favorite genre was Classical, and, as cliché as it sounds, it made me want to start learning how to play the piano. Here I am, with nearly a year of piano experience, and I find myself playing it nearly an hour or two a day because I love it so much. I plan on being a pianist when I get older, whether majoring in it or just doing it as a hobby I'm not sure, but probably the latter.
I had a dream when I was about 12-13, of being able to beat that "fucking crazy DP chart I saw on FFR" without just mashing the keys like I was so attuned to doing... and it came true a while ago without me even realizing it. Mashing random notes on SM is neigh-impossible if you're on anything higher than J1, and even on J1 it's still much more difficult than mashing on FFR, so when I beat the DP chart on SM, I felt pretty accomplished. Now, I can almost beat it at x1.3 with J1, and x1.1 on J4, so I'd say that my dream came a little more than just "true".
Bleh, I feel like I'm dragging this on now. Anywho, FFR and SM have affected me greatly, and perhaps I will continue playing them here and there (mainly SM, ofc), but I don't think I'll take them as competitively as I have the past year or so.
With all that said, and all the friends and enemies that I've made over these years, I bid my farewell to FFR, the site that started it all for me. The nights of playing SM for 5-6 hours straight without fatigue, the days of going home early just so I could practice on St. Scarhand x1.2 or Track on Fire x1.1... all will be just memories now. An era of my lifetime might be overshooting it, but it certainly feels like it's been a damn while. I don't know how many people will even read this, but it's nice to get it all off my chest. I'm not stressed or anything, but it feels nice to write all this (who knows, maybe I just have logorrhea or something, lol) and finish my "career" as an SM player. I plan on going to a musical college when I graduate next year (just finished Junior year), and I owe it all to FFR. Like I said before, it's what started this whole craze for music in me all those years ago.
It's been nice, FFR.
It's been nice.
Posted on: September 14, 2012, at 03:34:11pm [0 comments]
My fingers are shaking so much from the suspense of it all. About 7 minutes of "what if I miss one note?" can cause anyone's fingers to do that.
Max Combo: 3330
Posted on: July 9, 2012, at 12:39:14pm [0 comments]
One billion more to go 'til veteran.