Posted on: September 26, 2013, at 12:41:49pm [1 comment]
This would make for such an intense stepfile.
Posted on: September 6, 2013, at 03:30:13pm [1 comment]
Yeah.... I'm feeling pretty horrible right now. Came down with a sinus infection, coupled with a splitting headache. The headache is mostly gone now, but I'm coughing up a storm right now. Trying to get through it, but my body just wants me to get back home.
Like I'm gonna let a stupid illness stop me from getting this thought in, even though the key tapping is making it worse.
I'll try to keep y'all posted on my condition.
Symptoms have gone down. Feeling lots better. Still not 100% there yet.
Feeling a lot better. Symptoms are almost gone entirely.
Posted on: August 9, 2013, at 10:31:24am [0 comments]
A deep, burning hole that runs through my veins
A sickening view.... that shows the pain
A demon unleashed. One that plays with my mind
I'm lost.... I can't find the light.
I'm dead on my tracks, torn apart from reality
What the hell was I thinking? Causing you all this pain.
It's maddening, I'm startin' ta break out.
I've lost my stand, and now I need your hand.
The truth had been hidden from you. but now no more.
The demon unleashed needs punishment, but I need support
I'll settle the score, before I'm ignored
So forth. I'm getting it in my head.
The shit I've been through. My emotional pain
Is it them same as yours or greater? I can't be sure.
I can't hear myself think - my thoughts are going wild
I'm screaming at myself "You ass! You sack of bile!"
And for a while, I've thought about what I had done.
But it doesn't make a difference, cause I'm always wrong.
Why did I let myself go? Why did I lose my control?
I'm bound in chains, cause I can't be safe!
I've done so much wrong, and I'm feeling this pain with you
so break from me - but don't let me fall.
I still need you. I was used! Don't you see?
And I swear I will break these chains that bind me!
I'm busting through the walls of solitary!
I'm not gonna take it anymore! I'm my own military!
I'm fighting for you! I'm not gonna lose!
But without your help, I'll just toss in the shoe.
I know of your pain, and I'm sorry for what I had done.
But the game is not over until I have won.
I don't need a gun - no! Fuck that!
I ain't got a knife, but why do I need one?
I've got my heart! And that's all I need!
The silence of my mind will be heard
Cause I was rolled in the dirt - was hurt
I've gone berserk
I've got too much to live for! So bring forth my passion!
I'm gonna prove to you, I'm gonna show to you
That I am not the demon - I was only a puppet
In a grand master plan to ruin us both
I was blind to see the lies, but now I see clearly
So stand up, go forth, and go for the gold
Fuck the past! I can't take it no more!
My mind is set! I'll settle the score!
Even if I fail, just know that i tried
Cause I'm not gonna stop! Not yet
I'll show you the line I've crossed!
The only thing holding me back is my fear.
So I'm gonna take it, break it - I'm the master of my mind!
I'm never givin you up, I'm loving you to the max!
So Delilah, my baby doll, don't you dare go back!
That cavern you've been in, It's not worth it!
I know I've done wrong, but I'm not gonna quit.
I've had it with all this bullshit that I can't figure out
But I'm going to live on and figure this out
It's not about revenge, and it't not about forgiveness!
No, it's not about love and it's not about Happiness!
It's about my heart - where does it lead me?
it leads me to you, so I'm setting you free
from the pain that you've felt, but don't think I'm quitting you.
I can't handle the stress, even if I digress
I'm gonna show you myself. I'm gonna prove to the world
That I'm not the fucking punk that I've been labeled as.
I've been teased, rejected, ridiculed and broken.
Torn apart, scatter brained, And been abused like fuck
Beaten, marred, maimed, wrecked and utterly destroyed.
And the longer I delay, the worse it's gonna get
So hear my words, Delilah: I'm not gonna quit!
I'm going to fix this dilemma that we've put ourselves in
It's not just for me, and it's not just for you.
It's for everybody - the whole world
And I'm gonna pull through.
I'm making a stand for what I believe
And what I believe is what I see
I'm gonna free the angels of Heaven
I'll cleanse this world of the evil it holds
So, Demon, hear me - I'm calling you out!